The stark realization when you recognize that things aren’t the way they seem.. things aren’t the way they used to be.. things didn’t happen the way you envisioned.
But I trust You still because You are my only hope.
You said.
Love changes a person and the change stays with you even after love is over.
Another interpretation of this picture could be: “There are many fish in the sea.”
Car rides are more than just driving.
As I was driving back home this afternoon, the Spirit was searching my heart for past pains and wounds. And after grudgingly remembering and re-experiencing the level of hurt and rejection I felt in those memories, I realized that I’m just not ready to dig it all up again.
And it’s ironic, because I’m rejecting the work of the Spirit, but it’s the rejection from many people that hurt me the most my whole life.
Then I came to the conclusion that I must be shrewd and careful about what I say and what I do, because the things I said/didn’t say or the actions I took/didn’t take could very well leave scars on someone’s heart, similar to my own.
And the truth is these scars don’t easily go away. It takes the miraculous work of the Spirit to completely and perfectly heal those memories, forgive, and live in freedom from those burdens.
Though I will fail to perfectly love, I must be more careful. I do not want to leave scars that are as deep as my own on someone else’s heart, because I know how much it hurts.
I am guilty of this.
My soul desires to endlessly worship You in Spirit and in Truth.
And yet this world is full of decisions. Some have clear answers and some do not.
Help me not to just “get by” or even tiptoe around fine lines.. always draw me closer to Your presence. Help me make decisions that will do exactly and only this. I can go without certain things if it means that You will give me more of You.
Anywhere else is death to me.
Your presence is truly life to me, and it brings me comfort every minute of the day to know the God of the universe favors me, loves me.
Spirit, help me experience more of the Father’s heart in real and tangible ways.
Today was just one of those days I could laugh a lot. Haven’t been able to laugh this much in awhile :)
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Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Simon,” he said to Peter, “are you asleep? Could you not keep watch for one hour? Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.” (Mark 14:37-38)
